Why do I feel so punished as the result of following this? Did I do something wrong?
I know it hurts to lose someone you care about. I know it especially hurts to be rejected by the person you care the most about.
But this....seems unfathomable. I look at my surroundings, the home where I have lived for a dozen years, and there is no comfort.
The price I am now paying seems unfairly high.